A List of archived Trans Fem Non-Fiction I could find on internet forums.
By Fuwanuwa
"Like im tryna understand"
"I'm scared to transition (for too many reasons) and the fear is making me doubt myself so I've only told 2 people (a friend and my counselor). I wish I could just wake up in a woman's body. How did you know? any broad general advice?"
"I'm one month after my egg cracked and still so full of doubts. Apparently no number of online quizzes telling me I'm "definitely trans" is enough to fully convince me I'm not just deluding myself. Maybe someone here has a life jacket in my size to stop me from drowning? 😢"
By ohshithellno
"So, I'm a bit confused. I've been having some strange thoughts regarding my gender. This doesn't make much sense to me as I haven't had these thoughts before and had a relatively normal childhood. For some reference, I'm an 18 year old male and I've obsessively thought about being the opposite gender for a couple of years. Like I would create this whole universe in my head that revolves around me being a cis girl. About a year ago, I discovered Faceapp. I would take multiple pictures a day to swap my gender to female. Around 7-8 months ago, I created a discord account in which I presented myself as a female. It got to the point where I'd sext guys pretending to be a 20 year old woman. For some reason, this was a big turn on for me and I really enjoyed doing it. I stopped pretty quickly because of how wrong it felt to be doing. Now, about 5 months ago, I began to consider the possibility that I'm trans. I dismissed that as only around 1% of the population is actually trans, so it would be pretty unlikely that I'd fall under that category.
2 months ago, these feelings got much worse. I've been starting to feel envious of women and their feminine bodies and cute faces. I've begun to wish for a more feminine body and face. I also really want to wear feminine clothing but the only thing stopping me is the fact that I have a male body. There are times when it gets really bad, and I end up having a panic attack and/or crying because I'm not a girl. I'm starting to catch myself subconsciously using feminine mannerisms in my head and when I'm alone. Although usually it isn't so bad as of now, there are times when it is. I'm worried that it's only gonna get worse. I've also begun to revisit the possibility of being transgender but it seems so crazy that I'd actually be trans. I don't want to disappoint my family. They're not transphobes in fact, they're pretty accepting. It's because I'm supposed to be the next "man of the house" and I'm the only one that can fit that role. I also could lose many of my friends, some of whom I've known for over a decade. And with all this anti-trans stuff, I don't think it'll be safe. And what if I end up regretting it? Then what will I do? Is it really worth it? I'd rather just forget about it and move on.
Is there any way to stop these thoughts without transitioning, or at least be able to live with being a guy? Is it normal for a cis guy to feel this way? Why do I feel this way and how do I make it go away forever? It's beginning to take a toll on my mental health and my sex life. I have not told anyone about this yet. I can usually handle being a guy but I'm never happy as one Has anyone in a similar position felt this way and how did you deal with it? Is there any way I can become more comfortable with the gender I was born with? All I want is to be happy."